Day 27: Health & Well being reset

I'm fed up of feeling rubbish about myself. The way I look. The way I feel. I actually don't mind doing exercise and usually I love keeping active but my mind is has me locked up somehow. It's quite hard to describe how that feels but I know I'm not quite all me yet.

Being as busy as I am, I feel I need to take care of myself better. I see photos of myself over the past few years and I hate them even more than I normally do when I see photos of myself. Since going through two pregnancies and having two natural births my body has completely changed. I have struggled to get back to normal me. I think in combination of my self-doubt and zero self-confidence, I'm on a vicious downward spiral.

I fully empathise with people I meet at work who are fighting similar battles. It's tough and complex. Everyone has different weaknesses and vices. It is important to plan individual small steps to make positive changes in life. I know I will get to a point where I am happy and accepting with the way I look and feel. I'm just not there yet. I'm fully aware of how extreme I can take things. In the past I've been known to skip meals, eat very little throughout the day and exercise at the crack of dawn and late at night to burn calories.

I've learnt that I need to be sensible. My body is resilient. My mind needs some coaching. I am 5 foot 1. I'm quite small but I can find my inner strength to fight my demons. I need to look after me, before I can look after others.

So today I'm at gym, then a family swim and a quality day spent at home with my family.